Have a Good Day!

Every day, we wake up from our sleep hoping that this day would turn out to be day free from all the worries , a day full of happiness, a special day to do the long awaited dream of yours! Well, somehow yesterday turned out to be one such day for me!!

As usual had put my mobile's alarm on snooze mode as it started ringing out loudly the "Jaago jaago subah ho gayi..." song! Even though, I am a Sallu fan. Somehow, this makes me irritated especially when I am in mid of my dream! Again, it started ringing out. But, this time it was not the same song, Instead, it was a call from an unknown number.

I switched off the mobile and kept on driving my car. It's possible only in your dreams, that you can do all the unexpected things - that too with such perfection! Driving speedily along the woods singing out the songs loudly...!

Suddenly, I saw him. I had never expected in meeting him so soon. It's known fact that once you will definitely meet him up. But, like this - had ever dreamt of ? No, i guess!

I was not able to see his face, as light was radiating from behind him.

"Hey, where are you going up so fast?"

I was quite startled by him talking to me!

I tried for finding out the right word. But, somehow no word was coming out of me!

"Hey, I asked you something...no reply yet??"

"Well...." Again, I struggled for that right word on how to address him and for his question.

"Why you are taking so much of time in replying?" With calmness in his voice he continued, "This is how you often ask questions to me. Even before, I can find out the right thing for you. You would start blabbering out"

I realized what he is saying is quite true. Especially when my prayers are not heard, I wonder what he is up to after all.

"Aare... not coming to office today?" Neha literally kicked me from my bed. I woke up to see her face.

''Oh God!! Hope it turns out to be a good day".

Good day ? Or rather a day preparing myself for those better days ahead! From today, everyday is going to be a good and bright day as long as I who is living up those moments feels otherwise! Chances for that is less as what he had said in my dreams.... Right thing takes up time!

My Broken Umbrella!!

Well, its quite known to everyone that broken things can never be mended! Be it that imported glass vase which you got as a gift , your favorite coffee mug, your expensive porcelain dish etc etc ! I too strongly agreed upon on that until yesterday when I learnt an important lesson in life!

I was on my way to office. I had turned on my playlist and went on listening to those lovely songs. It's my policy that where ever one goes, one should enjoy each and every moment of life! Sometimes, I prefer listening to music else reading book or else calling up my friends! If nothing of the above activities can be done at a particular moment, then of course, I would try to listen to that distant and feeble voice - well my inner voice!

"Hey, is this seat occupied?"

I reduced the volume and said " No!"

Back to my song "Aaj mein upar ...Asma neeche...."

I saw him reading out Economic Times. I closed my eyes so as not to be disturbed. Along with the lyrics, I was carried away! As a kid,I had always dreamt of becoming a lyricist like Gulzar or Javed Akhtar!

Some dreams are meant to be dreams forever!!

Well, this had happened some one week back or so. Now, i am waiting in the corridor for the rain to cease and to board the bus. I took out my umbrella and while trying to unfold it, I saw one of its stretcher broken!!

Oh God! Why all such things happen to me alone! Whenever I wish to reach home early, there would be something or the other to delay me!!

"Can I use your Umbrella? "

Coincidental! Well, that's the word which can be used - the total "professional Economic Times" guy was asking for my umbrella!

"Huh.... Well, I am sorry. It's broken!"

"Still, can I??" He persisted.

"I don't think it will be useful to you.. anyways!"

I gave the umbrella to him and he unfolded it. He first tried mending the stretcher, by pressing once or twice close to the rib. Finally, he kept it open and ran to the car parking lot some 200 mtrs away.

He drove to where we were standing.

"Shall I drop you?"

Rain was not even showing any sign of stopping! I looked at Anjali and she nodded, with that we got into the car.

"Hi, I am Nihal". He smiled for the first time.

"Hi, I am Neha...and she is Anjali, my neighbour". I said.

"Thanks for your Umbrella. Here it is"

He handed over the wet umbrella.

"I am sorry. My Umbrella is broken"

"Broken??" Nihal asked.

"Haan..! Didn't you see that yourself ?"

"Well, it might seem to be broken...!! But, still it served the purpose of not getting wet!"

Well, What he said is true...at times its better to go with the thing you have even if its broken one rather than waiting on! I came to know one thing that - rather than discarding something as broken, if we try to mend it, we may be able to use it again!

Might be a small thing, still it requires someone else to point out to you...."Hey Boss, this is the way.....this is how it needs to be done..." etc etc!

I am not saying that all things can be fixed; most of it can be. Hmmm,those Broken heart, Broken soul types.....well !

"Hey, Neha...... Let's get down here"

Anjali disturbed my conversation with that distant feeble voice!

"Yeah..you can stop here. Thanks Nihal."

I smiled at that ET personality as I stepped out of the car.

Broken things can be mended by your outlook!!

PS: Photo courtesy : Sophia Douma (www.photo.net)

Zindagi Do Pal Ki

While walking to Pantry, one of the posters on the cabinet wall of my colleague caught my attention!

"Slow down and enjoy LIFE"....that bold words "LIFE" took me to my college days!

I still remember that afternoon lecture of Prof Sheshadri. As usual Prof had taken a different topic to discuss and to get the class engaged.

Prof in his usual tone had asked "I wonder how one would define their life. Come on class.... one by one...define in your terms how the word life can be defined".

Been the afternoon lecture hour, that too after heavy lunch, everyone had plans of sleeping quite well and here he had came up with his question to define so-called life!

Some of the answers that popped out from the intellectual brains of ours were

" Life shows the very existence of a human being!"

"Life is a combo-pack of fun-filled, beautiful as well as some tragical events...!!"

"Life a mix masala of success and failure.!!"

"Life is the path to spirituality!!"

"Life is a mystery"

"Life is just like your lectures! Can't understand a single thing!"

"Life is unpredictable"

"Life is colorful ....and beautiful"

I pressed the coffee button in coffee vending machine and kept my mug underneath it. As, it was filling to the brim. My mind was multitasking itself going to past, then to future.

Down the lane, even after a decade while trying to define the same four-letter word LIFE which we all had defined in that lecture class seems to be tough! Some of those answers which we had blabbered at that point of time seems to be silly like that life is so unpredictable! Well, it could be even compared to that of sreeshanth's bowling.... As one can't say whether its going to be a No-ball or a wide or else a straight delivery! Still, like every other cricket fan even though you would curse on the bowler , you would still continue to watch it till the end! Life is also the same, need to watch out for every ball as who knows in which ball, it would hit across that boundary line!

I have always wondered at that time on how life could be so colorful and all. Was it a canvas to paint with those bright yellow, blue, green and red shades across..As far as I came to know,it's not that life which is colorful but the events or the memories which makes it all the more colorful. All emotion has got a color entitle to it...some lighter shades, some darker shades, grey shades all represents one or the other!

Life is still a mystery for me and as everyone else I too am still trying to untie one after the other the mystery box ribbon's hoping to see at last what LIFE is all about!! And when one opens up the last and final box, hope they would have really known the beauty of LIFE!!

I heard my name called out. "Hey...where were you??Priya asked standing next to me.

"Why?? any issues came up?"

"Nahi tho! But we are supposed to attend a talk on the topic life and different aspects of life! Boring talks!! Chal let's move on if you are done with your coffee break!"

I could just smile at her. Again the same word LIFE coming across!

As I walked back to my place, I could hear the background song from the pantry "Yeh Jeevan hai...Iss Jeevan Ka yahi hai..."

PS: Even though meeting was going on.....And I was removing one after another ribbons of the mysterious box....here goes another box out humming "Har Pal yahan...Jee bhar Jiyo...Jo Hai Sama... Kal Ho Na Ho"

At last I met him!!

I ran down the steps as fast as I could. Excitement was reflecting on my face. Finally, its happening. The day has come to meet him!

" Beti....zaara dheere..!!"

To slow down! That too now? Who will listen to that!!

"Sorry ...not this time maa!!"

With that I already crossed the hall, throw a quick glance to the mirror! Well, Am I not beautiful today? White lacy top with the blue jeans. My favorite combination.

"Oye Ms. Universe.... come on....or you will miss him!"

I could hear Neha calling out. No more combing my hair and straight away got into car.

Neha was behind the steering wheels, and the identical twins - Radhika and avantika were seated back.

"Hey....you know what?? " Rads started pouring out! Avanti pitched in here and there.

I closed my eyes and his face came clearer! That mischievous smile of his...

"Neha... will I be able to see him today?". I asked.

Neha almost stamped on the brake and said "Will you stop asking me this same question? Seriously, its irritating!!"

Avanti giggled and said "Nehs....why not we have it recorded and play it on loop?"

I threw the cushion on to her! "Shut up! you both..."

Well, there is no point in fighting with them. They will never be able to understand how long I had been waiting for this day!

Finally, we reached the place. My heart was beating all the more.

All the hype around the stadium with his big big posters and hoardings! Well, I would have stayed there itself and kept on watching it.

Neha pulled me and asked "Madam ji...are you coming inside to see him or gonna be here??"

I just could blabber out "Well...woh Neha...Mein...woh..."

"Ok!! Rest of tumhare woh..mein talk after seeing him"

Far across, I could see him! As a background song, I could hear my heart singing out song from titanic!

"Far across the distance....
I see you...!!"

As far as I could remember, I had been crazy about him. Whenever I get to see his picture be it in those film magazines or newspaper, I would cut it out and paste in my album! Hopefully, one day, I can show HIM all those I have been collecting!

Dreams of him and me walking down the lighted up streets holding hands. In the background, of course, our romantic moon saab!

Well, those were my wild dreams and now standing in the crowd, waiting patiently to see him wave in my direction!

Something struck hard !! The fact of Reality and I would rather say that it's quite sweet one! And Thank God, my life is full of such flavors!

Kyun ki yehi tho hai zindaagi boss.....!! :)

PS: Dedicated to all those people who are crazy about superstars be it in any field - entertainment, sports etc!! You will be able to relate to this heart beat of her's! :)

Bidding You Good Bye - Part II

Oct 2, 2011

Sunday morning! Great day to do all your pending chores of the week and also to plan out for the coming week!

I went straight to their room. No one was there.

I should have known that Sunday is the day which they look forward. The day when they can meet their dear and near ones. They get a chance to talk to them!

I have always thought of how they can leave their parents to the care of some unknown strangers who finally turns out to be the part of their life esp in their countable days!

I still remember the day when she had held her hands in mine and bid goodbye to me.

Those wrinkled face of her's were still bright with a smile. I had always adored her silver hair. Not a speck of black hair you can find in it!

She always used to sit in that corner bench alone and away from the rest. Once, I had gone upto her and asked why she is sitting away from those and she had replied saying

" Beti..... I would like to think of those beautiful moments I had in my life - the day when he was born, his tiny fingers clutching tightly to my fingers, warmth of his smile during those deep sleeps, shaky first steps he took, first word he spoke - maa - mesmerizing enough!!"

She took a pause and continued.

" Now he is in other part of world - away from me! Still he is close to my heart!"

A tear roll down her wrinkled face - still she managed to put that sweet toothless smile of hers and said "I love you my son.... how far you are know that your maa always loved you."

She gave me the notepad she had been jotting down all the while. I read those lines of her's

Bidding You Goodbye......!

I couldn't resist in giving a hug to her! The most deserving person in the whole world at that moment, even though I am not the one she was expecting that hug from!

A decade have passed by, still I could spot that silver haired wrinkled face of her's each and every face of those eagerly waiting to meet up their dear ones!

It's hard to bid goodbye!

Insomniac jotting down......!!

I wonder whether I am turning out to be an insomniac!?

For the first two decades of my life, I would have hit on to the bed before the clock struck 9:00 PM. Now, thanks to the profession I choose. I am able to be wide awake and alert till I hear the bird's chirping out. That's the time when I think of "Oh oh!! Next day have come up...and still I haven't slept!".

I force myself to sleep by humming out lullaby's and shutting my eyes tightly!

And in another two to three hours, there would be knock on my door asking me to wake up and come down for breakfast. Wholesome breakfast would be ready and lunch too for take away!

I would really appreciate those who wake up early in the morning! :) This is one of the trait which I lack unless or until the situation demands!

Situations like : you have got to go for a training or a trip, an exam, fasting and most importantly if its that day on which you are travelling back to your home town!

Hoping to see the sun rise of tomorrow morning after a small nap! So here I go zzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzz zzzzzzzz!! :)

Bidding You Good Bye - Part I

Oct 1, 2011

Leather Diary with the year clearly shown as 2002.

I turned to the marked page. Old page from diary streams out all those good times we had. Its almost close to a decade since I had jotted down this.

Transformation of that dreamy girl to present one is the proof for changes are inevitable!

Bidding you goodbye

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Holding your hands in mine,

Looking into those eyes of your's -

I struggled to lighten up with that fake smile -

Hiding those tears from rolling down.

Time have come to bid you goodbye -

Before I could continue reading, I was startled by a voice screaming out "Oh No! Not again..."

Shreya! In the mirror, I could see her walking into the room.

"Kya hua...?" I asked her and slipped the diary back into the shelf.

"Didi.... How can they do so? Woh ....I had put them to bed and now when I went back..! They have the room..."

Shreya - always brings one or the other complaints. This is not a new thing. She has taken that it is her responsibilty to bring discipline in everyone's life. And, all dislike her for this reason. Still, with out her this home will not even be functioning!

I smiled and said "Shreya.....waise it's sunday tomorrow. So let..."

Before, I could complete, she went on "So let them enjoy.... Shreya you take care and good night, right Didi?"

I smiled at her. She knows what's there in my mind and most of the time she would be completing those sentences of mine. Eight years of understanding, I would rather say.

She went back and closed the door behind.

I tried to play some music to take away all those memories which were creeping into my mind!! Time was ticking away and I need to get some sleep so that for tomorrow I can bring up their spirit!